Disclaimer: I wrote this early in my pregnancy with Demi Grace.

A Pastor shared this scripture with me while I was pregnant with Demi Grace.

Joel 2:25-32 New King James Version (NKJV)

25 “So I will restore to you the years that the swarming [a]locust has eaten,The crawling locust,The consuming locust,And the chewing locust,My great army which I sent among you.You shall eat in plenty and be satisfied,And praise the name of the Lord your God,Who has dealt wondrously with you
He shared how God restored what the enemy stole from him and was still continuing to do so even today. 
It spoke to my heart. I often feel like I am not where I want to be. I get caught in the comparison trap and wonder if I will ever go back to school and do more for myself. I look to the other side and as always the grass looks greener. 
Through my Pastor’s testimony, God spoke to my heart and confirmed that my current season is exactly where I need to be. God made me a mother, not of one but 2 children to raise (now 3 praise the Lord) here on Earth and the 4 I have waiting for us in heaven. 
I have the privilege and honor of raising our girls and I see this as an inheritance from the Lord. 
Psalm 127:3 Children are an inheritance from the LORD. They are a reward from him. 
When we set our eyes on anything but what is in front of us, we lose out and get caught thinking we are missing something. When in all actuality we have everything that God wants us to have, right here and now. 
I learned a lesson of gratitude for where I am at this very moment and secondly learned not worry myself with the future, the finances or fear that I am lacking anything. God is in control. He is Jehovah Jireh my provider.
I learned to find my peace in God and his plan for my life. The word says God has plans to prosper me. This brother shared with me, that he sees a maturity, growth and spirit of motherhood on me and that blew me away. Just a few months ago, when I realized I was pregnant with Demi Grace.  I was hearing this from God. God said I created you to be a mother, Pilar. This is your season to just be a mom. This should be your first ministry. No distractions.

There is a time and a place for the “other” desires of my heart if they even line up with Gods will for my life but right now I have to cherish and appreciate the 2 blessings we have been given.
Dani Rose and Demi Grace.
Slowly but surely God is restoring what the locusts have eaten. 
This brothers words feel on good soil. The seed was planted being watered and is flourishing.

Today I can say this blessed my spirit. Because God was prospering me and I didn’t realize you can have it all. And you have it all when your have faith and family. Don’t look into somebody else’s yard. Reflect on the goodness overflowing in your life, be grateful because God knows what is for you.

I’ll end with this.

For, “All people are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field; the grass withers and the flowers fall, but the word of the Lord endures forever.” And this is the word that was preached to you.
1 Peter 1:24‭-‬25 NIV

This world and everything in it will pass away. But God is eternal.