Like A Poem He Came to Me

Like A Poem

He came to me like a poem

Suddenly wrapping itself up into every sense

I waited for you, prayed for you and believed in you before I knew your name

He always was, and always fit just perfectly into the masterpiece that is

I just couldn’t see, couldn’t believe it

Like a poem, he came and flooded my soul

It felt like he was there all along

Even if no one else believed, it was written

Illegible scribbled ink dependent on my mood

Out of the pages, he came to be  

He came to me like a poem

When I least expected it

“He will come when you least expect it”

All the married women would say

And they were certainly right, he just strolled right in

Like the poem demanding to be written

That stubborn creative flood that rushes through your fingertips at night

Disturbing your sleep to be born onto the page

What an exquisite nocturnal feast taking center stage

Imagine him

Standing there in the family portrait

He had been there all along

With quiet confidence

Awaiting his grand entrance

He came to me like a poem

And I felt at home

Holding hands and determined to stay close   

He seemed so familiar, so comforting

His presence pierced my skin like a tattoo and instantly I knew why

I recognized him from my dreams

He was sent to encourage me

Many moons ago

Before I believed in the happiness love could bring

He came to me like a poem

Always there, just not noticeable to the human eye

But when you recognize the force within

You wake up and get out of the way

Let it flow and let it stay

Like a poem,  he came and breathed life into me

Davie…

Living with Bipolar Disorder Beauteous Me Podcast

In an effort to raise awareness. I shared my journey with Bipolar 1 Disorder on Jamilly Whitfield’s Beauteous Me podcast.

A person affected by bipolar I disorder has had at least one manic episode in his or her life. A manic episode is a period of abnormally elevated or irritable mood and high energy, accompanied by abnormal behavior that disrupts life. Most people with bipolar I disorder also suffer from episodes of depression.

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Our Taino Sonshine

Donovan James, 

Like an early morning ray of light son

You were created

Whispers of gentle flowing energy embraced my womb

My heart rhythmic pulse lulled you to sleep

Many nights I searched the stars for the shape and size of your eyes

With each flutter, I jumped with excitement at the thought of your sweet and perfect face

Children are a gift from God, an inheritance from the Lord 

Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart

If it’s his plan and purpose for your life it will be done in the name of Jesus

And before I know it you will be here

In my arms precious innocent love beaming through you and piercing my heart with such a force

I imagine tracing your face with my fingertips

And I know I will fall in love all over again

Motherly words flow freely from my lips and I will sing to you in our native language

With so much emotion my eyes with cry happy tears over you

every move you make

Every step you take is intricately stitched to my heart and a quilt of your scent will embrace me

That baby fresh smell will tickle my nose and I will lean into your neck for more

A mother, a creator, a universal woman given the most miraculous power on Earth

To bring forth life from the fruit of my womb and love you with all of my heart

I will slowly lean into your perfect face and respond with butterfly kisses

You were knit together in my womb and soon I will get to enjoy your unconditional love forever

We can’t wait to meet you Sonshine

Restoration

Disclaimer: I wrote this early in my pregnancy with Demi Grace.

A Pastor shared this scripture with me while I was pregnant with Demi Grace.

Joel 2:25-32 New King James Version (NKJV)

25 “So I will restore to you the years that the swarming [a]locust has eaten,The crawling locust,The consuming locust,And the chewing locust,My great army which I sent among you.You shall eat in plenty and be satisfied,And praise the name of the Lord your God,Who has dealt wondrously with you
He shared how God restored what the enemy stole from him and was still continuing to do so even today. 
It spoke to my heart. I often feel like I am not where I want to be. I get caught in the comparison trap and wonder if I will ever go back to school and do more for myself. I look to the other side and as always the grass looks greener. 
Through my Pastor’s testimony, God spoke to my heart and confirmed that my current season is exactly where I need to be. God made me a mother, not of one but 2 children to raise (now 3 praise the Lord) here on Earth and the 4 I have waiting for us in heaven. 
I have the privilege and honor of raising our girls and I see this as an inheritance from the Lord. 
Psalm 127:3 Children are an inheritance from the LORD. They are a reward from him. 
When we set our eyes on anything but what is in front of us, we lose out and get caught thinking we are missing something. When in all actuality we have everything that God wants us to have, right here and now. 
I learned a lesson of gratitude for where I am at this very moment and secondly learned not worry myself with the future, the finances or fear that I am lacking anything. God is in control. He is Jehovah Jireh my provider.
I learned to find my peace in God and his plan for my life. The word says God has plans to prosper me. This brother shared with me, that he sees a maturity, growth and spirit of motherhood on me and that blew me away. Just a few months ago, when I realized I was pregnant with Demi Grace.  I was hearing this from God. God said I created you to be a mother, Pilar. This is your season to just be a mom. This should be your first ministry. No distractions.


There is a time and a place for the “other” desires of my heart if they even line up with Gods will for my life but right now I have to cherish and appreciate the 2 blessings we have been given.
Dani Rose and Demi Grace.
Slowly but surely God is restoring what the locusts have eaten. 
This brothers words feel on good soil. The seed was planted being watered and is flourishing.

Today I can say this blessed my spirit. Because God was prospering me and I didn’t realize you can have it all. And you have it all when your have faith and family. Don’t look into somebody else’s yard. Reflect on the goodness overflowing in your life, be grateful because God knows what is for you.

I’ll end with this.

For, “All people are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field; the grass withers and the flowers fall, but the word of the Lord endures forever.” And this is the word that was preached to you.
1 Peter 1:24‭-‬25 NIV
https://bible.com/bible/111/1pe.1.24-25.NIV

This world and everything in it will pass away. But God is eternal.

When in Pain… WORSHIP

I learned this from a dear bestie B.

She told me to do this when I was deep in my depression.

And it’s biblical advice.

Psalm 59:16-17 says

God shows us unfailing ❤️

Even in our darkest moments He is with us.

In this Psalm, David says You are my strength; I wait for you to rescue me, for you, Oh God, are my fortress.

David even in deep distress was worshipping God.

Praise God in songs through your storm.

Be encouraged. You are not alone. God is your refuge. Your shelter from pursuit, danger or trouble.

Have faith that God will honor your worship.

They call me Mama

Motherhood is the greatest calling God could give a woman.

In Genesis God says be fruitful and multiply.

So I will have all the babies. Lol 🤣

Honestly, no other job compares to this. And it is work. But it’s a responsibility that I take pride in.


You get to pour into a life and leave a legacy behind in the world. What a great privilege.


God rewards what is unseen. Our work as mothers goes on behind the scenes. You feed your children, teach them, bathe them, love on them, nuture and mold them into future leaders and warriors for God.

There is so much we do when no one is looking.

Except our children. They always know. They are our guiding light. And when you hear them speak you see the fruits of your labor.


Your children are reflections of what you say and do. They are little mirrors shining back at us.

They remind me to


Be kind


Be generous


Be grateful


They are always watching and imitating our behavior.

It has not been easy being a mother but my girls make it rewarding every single day. We have struggled with multiple pregnancy loss but this one scripture has been true for us.

Worship the Lord your God, and his blessing will be on your food and water. I will take away sickness from among you, and none will miscarry or be barren in your land. I will give you a full life span.
Exodus 23:25‭-‬26 NIV

I thank God and my husband Davie for making me a mother and being the girl’s superhero Papa. We are so fortunate to do this thing called life together. I hope we make our children proud. I hope they will turn to God when they endure struggles. I pray we are good and faithful servants leading them in the word of God. And while we think we are done at two daughters I would honestly love a son.

Let’s see what the Lord has planned. ❤❤❤

Recovery

I am so blessed to be alive and well. I am a miracle and I am here for a purpose. I know God has a plan for my life to encourage and uplift as I share my truth.

God is not done with me yet. He’s been transforming me into his likeness for over 10 years. I was saved to share my story and win souls for heaven.

God has given me a spirit of good courage and I will not stop sharing the gospel in the way I walk, talk and live.

I am in a good season and I am grateful.

January was incredibly hard on my family because of my hospitalization but thanks to prayer and support we made it through and are great examples of what happens in this walk.

God says there will be trails of many kinds but I will be with you. Read the book of James. He says consider it pure joy to ensure trials of many kinds. It’s builds perseverance and character.

I thank God for family, church and a medical team that has helped me adjust to meds and be able to come back stronger and healthier for my two daughters.

It has not been a walk in the park but I know I am not alone.

Be encouraged. God has equipped you for today. Stay focused on the present moment and claim your victory.

I am healing, and writing to be set free. I am standing in my power and God given authority.

I know God will finish what he started. He doesn’t leave my side… and he is with you too in your suffering whatever it may be.

The best way I can spend my time now as I recover is to focus on one thing at a time. Not one day but one moment. God always handles the rest.

Guided by the King

OUR MISSION FIELD IS HERE

LORD YOU CAME BEFORE US

YOU KNOW THE WAY WE SHOULD GO 

WE THINK WE KNOW BUT YOU KNOW BETTER

WE MAKE PLANS BUT FAIL

TEACH US YOUR WAYS 

SPEAK TO OUR HEARTS AND LET US HEAR

YOUR WORD SAYS

DON’T LET YOUR HEART BE TROUBLED 

DON’T BE AFRAID 

THAT AINT EASY 

BUT IT CAN BE DONE

BECAUSE YOU ARE THE ONE

WHO GUIDES US STEP BY STEP

WHAT WE THINK WE KNOW 

WE DON’T 

AND WHAT WE KNOW MEANS NOTHING 

I CONSIDER IT PURE JOY TO ENDURE TRIALS OF MANY KINDS

THIS TRIAL IS BUILDING CHARACTER 

THIS TRIAL IS BUILDING PERSEVERANCE 

THIS TRIAL IS BUILDING FAITH 

YOU MAKE A WAY WHERE THERE IS NO WAY 

OUT OF THE MOUNTAINS WE CRY OUT AND YOU HEAR US

YOU ARE COMING &

YOU ARE HERE

YOUR WILL BE DONE

YOU ARE NEAR TO ALL WHO 

OPEN THEIR EYES AND EARS

YOU WALK WITH US

YOU TALK WITH US

AND YOU TELL ME I AM YOUR OWN

I WILL HAVE FAITH ANS KEEP ON PATH

YOU WILL NOT LEAVE OF FORSAKE ME

No condemnation in Christ

God doesn’t condemn us.

His voice is a gentle nudge to change and transform into his likeness.

The enemy lies and condemns us. Tells us we are not valuable. He makes us insecure and worried. He gives us anxiety.

I’m learning to recognize the difference between the two voices.

I am learning to be still and let God be God.

I am learning I am not in control but God is.

Psalm 23 says God walks with us in our valleys. He will never leave us our forsake us.

I have experienced this truth in the last 30 days.

God is with you in your struggle, hold on to what he has taught you and praise him when all seems to hard to bare.

There’s a saying that does Dont forget in the dark what you learned in the light.

So as I write my stories to encourage and bring glory to God. I am reminded that I too need to meditate 🖐be still and step away to listen to the voice of God above the noise of the world.

It’s easier said than done but I’m trying. And I accept my weakness for when I am weak, God is strong.